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Janet

By Marian Glaser © September 2000


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As I drank my cranberry juice this morning I saw that my new two-handled cup

had a picture of Pooh on one side, flying up to the clouds, pulled by

a red balloon, smiling and probably shouting “Whee!” as he enjoyed the experience.

On the other side Piglet is trudging on the ground, carefully clutching his red balloon.

Maybe there was no room for any other character and

they were the ends of a continuum also traveled with every mood swing.

I remember laughing and crying within the same five minutes during my menopause.

Greg understood that but gave way when a diabetic’s peculiar behaviors

under the influence of high and low blood sugar hit him.

I remember raging, throwing glasses against a wall, later

sweeping and picking shards out of our dried flowers.

I also slept or passed out for twelve hours or more.

It was when I drank forty-eight ounces of grapefruit juice

that our friend, Jean, suggested I be tested. They wondered why I wasn’t dead.

Those pictures also reminded me of the split in my life.

Once I had a house and family. We had a penthouse and could sit

in comfortable, cushioned lounge chairs in a roof top garden,

sipping the Moet et Chandon dry champagne I like

while discussing with Greg the little we knew of the lives

of our two sons and one daughter.

Then I was diagnosed and three years later Greg left,

tired of my refusal to follow my diet and check my blood sugar regularly

as well as inject my insulin, tired of rages and comas.

I lasted another lonely seven years before my peripheral neuritis brought me here.

Now I live in this small hospital room where I share everything.

Even these attendants who wash me and bring my trays.

The private elevator that opened into my living room

is rented by others while my wheelchair is crowded

into this one with my fellow residents here,

where I’ve lived since they amputated my black feet.

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